I feel like a terribe person when I'm in a bad mood. I feel like I'm letting everyone down, because I'm not happy. Jessica is supposed to be happy, all the time. Except I'm not... really. So I'm sorry for the way I am when I'm not the happiest person. I know I am not very nice, I just can't help it. But honestly I don't even care anymore...
it's been harder than usual lately, and I'm not sure why. But I'll get over it. Or burry it, like I always do.
I really am sorry.

I just wanted someone to hear that...

There are times when I miss you.
Then I remember you dented the stove, 
While yelling at mom and Josh.
While I sat in my room crying against the door
Waiting for it all to go away.
There are times when I miss you.
But then I think of
how many times I've cried myself to sleep
Because of you.
There are times when I hope you miss me
Because I've changed,
I'm stronger.
I want you to miss your little girl, 
And realize you've made a huge mistake.
I want you to know,
How many tears I've shed, 
How many letters I've written,
How many times I've screamed,
How I'm living my life just fine.
Without you. Yet
There are still times when I miss you.

love.

Is it so crazy that I believe in love?
I feel like it is the closest thing that humanity has to perfection. Cause when you love someone... You love everything about them. There isn't anything in the world that you wouldn't do for them and you trust them to take your heart and not break it. When you're in love, it's perfect. I have never felt this way before.. and I'm scared to death of losing this feeling. I'm afraid to mess up. I'm afraid to forget. I'm afraid to fail. All I want is to love you forever, and for you to love me back. I love how you make me feel, and I hope to keep you happy for as long as I can.
I love you.